Showing posts with label angst. Show all posts
Showing posts with label angst. Show all posts

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Gifts, Part II


Faramir sings the wrong laments.  He is thirteen; he is angry and alone, and standing upwind of the battlefield's bountiful crop of pyres, he sings some ancient lay in the tongue of long-dead Kings, whose language ebbs and swells like the sea over which they came on ships with sails like the wings of gulls.  Faramir is thirteen, angry and alone, and he sings the wrong laments in a voice whose piercing beauty hasn't yet begun to crack.

It's late May - early summer, the vast plains of eastern Gondor blushing green-gold blending into the silver-violet haze of sage, the high desert of no-man's land where Vanka's people's skins of brown and grey and green lend them an advantage unattainable to even the stealthiest of Rangers.  The air, musical with fat swift-winged bees, had smelled of grasses, warm earth, and far-off rain.  Now that flies had replaced the bees, the field reeked of blood, shit and fear, and roasting meat.  Soon it would smell of burning meat.  War lent no time to bury the dead in un-tilled soil, sun-baked in Gondor's dry summers.

When the monsoons of August and September came, when their mother was alive and their father sane, the water ran off the russet soil in rivulets, curling into hollows, etching out gullies and shooting, sudden and lethal, down the arroyos of years and centuries gone by.  The monsoons seldom come now; and when they do, often, their violence robs the earth of the good they once brought, hail battering to death even the hardy roots of sage and gorse and long golden grasses, winds twisting the limbs of olive trees past what even their gnarled strength could bear.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

What Doesn't Kill You


He loved her so very much,” said Faramir the idealist, staring sadly enraptured at his mother's portrait hanging over the cold cavern of a fireplace in Denethor's study.

Strange, the things the mind divulges, left unsupervised – like a very old person, rummaging aimlessly through a wardrobe that's bigger on the inside, pulling out dusty assortments of mis-memories. It has been at least six months since that conversation.

He'd looked down at the upturned oval of his brother's face, and remembered how they had fought, until the very end. Their mother died the week of his tenth birthday; back then, their fighting had seemed a fact of nature, frightening certainly but neither right nor wrong, like the bone-shatter crack of trees in deep winter. Giants' voices, snapping overhead.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

The Sky Has Claws


Creaking in the New Year's cold, the old man peered into the crevice between book-cases. In its depth lurk a few forgotten nibs, much darkness, innumerable dust bunnies, and a recalcitrant grandson. In his younger days, he thinks, he might have discerned more than the hint of a form, solid and stubborn in the shadows.

Friday, January 13, 2012

No One Remembered

He would not mourn her.

Hers had been a heroic death, all told – valiant and selfless, if hardly picturesque. Two out of three wasn't bad. But he would not mourn her. He would not grant her such an early death; he would not let her go so easily, nor lie so heavy on his conscience. He would keep her exhausted and beautiful, radiantly defiant, not angry but joyous in her epiphany, denying him. He would not mourn her.

After all, he had no power over her.